in search of f__a

Today, I see(k) stillness.
Still, (at times the past) has ways of dwelling in the present and is sometimes present in the present - more than is healthy.
I was silent too often about revealing the variety of my appreciations. And, sometimes one speaks too late.
Still, there are reasons to try to mend things of the past that I wish I could have done. Differently. Still.
Still, there are reasons that trying to mend the things of the past becomes quite trying.
Trying, (since) to do so forever, I'd never be able just to be - still - in the present.
And, as I said, I seek this still-ness - in the present.
Still, I'd forego this stillness in the present...to mend the past...with and for, Her.